It realy feels like an addiction in a way; not unlike putting down the pack and not lighting up.
I know the enemy, and he is somewhere inside... wanting to buy stuff. And he is tricky too, just like the nicotine monster.
"Just a little."
"Just this once."
"It won't hurt a thing if you just make it quick."
Sitting here at home, working away this afternoon, the mental list of things to do after work started growing and growing. At its genesis was a simple task; ride to the post office and change my address. Then a simple list of items I needed from the grocery store - just a few things like sugar and zip-lock baggies and some fresh fruit.
Then things started going a little sideways.
For some reason I started thinking about the Knights Templar and how I would like to read more on them. OK, $30 for a book from Barnes and Noble. I can do that.
Then my mind wandered to the bare walls. Last weekend I unearthed my old flying charts.
Hmmm... Maybe I will take this Las Vegas Terminal Area Chart to the little framing place down the street and see how much it would cost for them to flatten the creases and place it in a frame. That would look nifty.
Oh, and a bike! How about stopping by the bike shop. You need more exercise, you know.
You haven't had beer in a week, why not stop and get a bottle or two of microbrews?
That's where I pulled the reins.
What do I need? I need to minimize. This is not minimizing - this is an attempt to justify wants. I don't need a book on the Knights Templar; there is plenty to read in this place. While a Las Vegas TAC would indeed look very nice hanging on the wall, it is not a need. Yes, exercise would definitely be a good thing, but why spend $100 or more on a bike when I can just focus on my hiking while adding a bit of cardio? And the beer? OK, maybe not a need, but it does rank up there in the wants.
What do I need? I need to enjoy the things I have and the people I know.
Tonight... Baking cookies with a little glass of wine, accompanied by music from the stereo I picked up at a garage sale several years back.
You need wine, cookies and some good conversation? Get yer butt over here. :-)